–I feel terrified before going on stage. It doesn´t matter how many times I´ve done it (and I´ve done it millions of times, literally), I´m always scared. It´s like jumping off the abyss into the Unknown and not knowing how, where or if I´m going to land.
That is my recurrent comment, every time I catch a compassionate soul backstage, someone to whom I can cry a bit and pray with.
I don´t go on stage with choreography, safety nets or certainties – I go naked. I improvise and reject any short cut, trick or prejudice. Performing should be an unpredictable adventure. For my audience but, most of all, for me. I launch myself on stage as I launch myself into the bed of my lover – vulnerable, on fire, eager to love and to be loved.
For me, Egyptian Dance is Life and life is raw, beautiful and shocking; life is the smile and the tear, the courage and the fear. Life – as Dance – is not about doing cute, neat, well behaved and predictable movements that teachers have passed on to me but moving beyond all them and sharing a piece of my soul with my audiences. All or nothing. The Big Jump into the human heart – that´s Egyptian Dance.
Here are some messy, imperfect, honest and oh so human shots taken at my last performance in Istanbul @ Tarazade Festival.
Thanks to Tara Tarazade for making this magic happen.
Photos by André Elbing